forever furness. : today one year ago.

this day, exactly one year ago was my very favorite monday to ever exist. it was only fitting that he came back on a monday, after the many, many toddy filled mondays i had experienced in past two years.
the night before, (october 24th) i called lindsr and ellbell over (of course) and we slumbered... and died my hair at about, eeee 4:30 am.
i did NOT sleep at all that night. how could i? i was going to be seeing him, after 2 years (and 11 days.. if we're being exact.)
i would write down my emotions but i'm not sure i can place them. it was a mixture of about every emotion a human can experience at once. well, all of them except sadness. i was ANYTHING but sad that day. :)
i went to school but i promise you, i was not at school.
i also had to set up for the halloween dance for my ward with halloween decor i temporarily borrowed from mama c. i'm really glad i was busy because even with me going from place to place it still seemed like the longgggest daaayy eveerrrr.
i didn't really know exactly what time he would be coming to my house, but, the plan was for him to land, get released, then come see me :)
i'm the type of person who loves to have her wing-people, so i just had a few people accompany me to sandy for the long awaited event to take place. ;) my wonderful sisters even came down from idaho for me... they knew :)

i got ready as best i could. everything had to be perfect. i wore yellow, obviously ;) i knew it would be perfect no matter what i was wearing, looked like or what happened that night. i was seeing him. i got to hug him, talk to him, be with him for the first time in SO long. that in and of itself would make the night absolute perfection.
i was going crazy. absolutely CRAZY. i was pacing, jumping at ANY sound that resembled the doorbell and couldn't think straight at all. then i got a call from ellbell telling me to check my email. i obeyed, and found a video there. from my other brown half.

she wanted to share in the excitement with me even though she couldn't be there 'technically.' she is so amazing. lets just say, she knows me aaaand my make-up needed to be reapplied soon after finishing. haa :)
then, the door bell rang.

i couldn't move! i was stuck in that position. but once i heard my mom start to squeal after answering the front door, i took off in a dead sprint.
here, this pretty much sums it up..

after the paparazzi cleared, we took a drive to find some food and ended up right back at my house just talking and talking. i couldn't form complete sentences. literally. like the babbling fools you see in movies. that was me. i just couldn't believe he was right next to me. it was so unreal. i didn't want him to leave but he was so tired and i couldn't be selfish anymore. i ran inside and squealed and watched that video from above that erwin got over and over and over and remembered that this time, it wasn't a dream. he was HOME for real. never to leave me again :)